July 21, 2008

Love Letter to Trinidad

(the tiny city in NorCal, not the Caribbean island (though i'm sure it's fantastic.))

Dear Trinidad,

You've done it, you've made me an adulteress. i thought i was loyal to Portland and all it offered me, but you made my eyes wander. Yes, my heart too. You and your neighbors have beaches and tall trees. Sunshine and fog. Crazy hippies and Restoration Hardware. Breweries. You have clean, smoke-free air and lots and lots of ferns. You have raccoons that appreciate hot chocolate powder. You have groves with eerie birds and prehistoric plants and rampaging elk. You have populations of locals who look like tourists who've been camping for 2 weeks. i would never have to shower if i lived with you, Trinidad, and you know how very much that appeals to me. i'm a very confused person. Part of me wants to be a hipster mctrendypants career girl in an urban culture center, and an equal part of me wants to be a meandering driftwood collector with 5 dogs and dirty hair. If this were a Lifetime movie it would be called "She Wanted Designer Jeans And Dirty Hair: The Kallie Rene Baker Markle Story". Was any house ever so divided?? i need time, North Coast lover. i need to clear my head, and while a smokey, 112 degree city like Redding is no place to do that, it's my only option. Say you'll wait for me? if i promise to get a bicycle will you wait for me? i want to be able to commit, but i can't right now. i have too many things to figure out, and i need to sit down with Portland and reassess my feelings. i love you Trindidad, you complete me. We'll always have Luffenholtz Beach.

Kallie

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